Chasing Amy

I love this movie... So many quotables... I love how movies can give you such insight...

Holden: So it's true right?
Alyssa: Is that what you want to hear? Is it? Yeah, Holden, it's true. In fact, everything you heard or dug up on me is probably true. Yeah, I took on two guys at once! You wanna hear some gems you might not have unearthed? I took a 26 year old guy to my senior prom and left halfway through to have sex with him and Gwen Turner in the back of a limo. Or how about in college when I let Shannon Hamilton videotape us having sex, only to find out the next day he broadcast it on the campus cable station. They're all true, Holden. Didn't you know? I am the QUEEN of suburban legend.
Holden: Did you somehow fucking fail to mention this to me? What the fuck's wrong with you? How could you do all those things?
Alyssa: EASILY! Some I did out of stupidity, some I did out of what I thought was love. But good or bad they are MY choices and I am NOT making apologies for them now! Not to you, or not to anyone! And how dare you lay a guilt trip on me about it, in public, no less? Who the FUCK do you think you are, you judgmental prick?
Holden: How the fuck am I supposed to feel about all this?
Alyssa: How are you supposed to feel about it? Feel whatever the fuck you want to about it, all right? The only thing that matters is how you feel about ME.
Holden: I don't know how I feel about you now.
Alyssa: Why? Why? Because I had some sex?
Holden: SOME sex?
Alyssa: Yes, Holden. That's all it was, some sex. Most of it stupid high school sex. Like you never had sex in high school.
Holden: Alyssa, there is a world of fucking difference between typical high school sex and getting fucked by two fucking guys at the same time! They fucking used you.
Alyssa: NO! I used them! You don't think I would have let it happen if I hadn't wanted to, do you? I was an experimental girl, for Christ's sake! Maybe you knew early on that your track was from point A to B, but, unlike you, I was not given a fucking map at birth. So I tried it all. That is until WE - that's you and I - got together. And suddenly I was sated. Can't you take some fucking comfort in that? [sobbing] You turned out to be all I was looking for, the missing piece in the big fucking puzzle. Look, I'm sorry that I let you believe you were the only guy I'd ever been with. I should have been more honest. But it just didn't - It seemed to make you feel special in a way that me telling you over and over how incredible you are wouldn't get across. Holden, I'm sorry.
(Presses herself into Holden's chest)
Holden: Just don't do that.
(pushes her away)
Alyssa: Do you mean to tell me that, while you have zero problem with me sleeping with half the women in New York City, you have some sort of half assed, mealy mouthed objection to pubescent actions that took place almost ten years ago? What the fuck is your problem?
Holden: I want us to be something that we can't be?
Alyssa: And what's that?
Holden: A normal couple.
(walks away)

Jay: So four tits or what?
Holden: No, man. It's not like that.
Jay: What's it like then?
Holden: Right now? I don't know. I love her you know? But, uh, she has a past.
Jay: I'll say. Stuffin' two guys, eating' chicks out and shit. You know I heard, this one time she had this dog -
Holden: Eat your fucking bagel already and shut up.
Jay: Look at this touchy motherfucker right here. So if you're all in love and shit, what's the problem?
Holden: The problem is stupid shit like that. It was bad enough when it was just girls, you know? You throw guys in the mix - two guys at once, no less - All that experience, you know. What am I supposed to think?
Jay: Think "good," ya fuckin' ninny shithead, 'cause now she'll be all true and blue and shit. Bitch tasted life. Now she's settlin' for your boring funny-book-makin' ass.

Silent Bob: So there's me and Amy, and we're all inseparable, right? Just big time in love. And then four months down the road, the idiot gear kicks in, and I ask about the ex-boyfriend. Which, as we all know, is a really dumb move. But you know how it is: you don't wanna know, but you just have to, right? Stupid guy bullshit. So, anyway, she starts telling me about him... how they fell in love, and how they went out for a couple of years, and how they lived together, her mother likes me better, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah... and I'm okay. But then she drops the bomb on me, and the bomb is this: it seems that a couple of times, while they were going out, he brought some people to bed with them. Menage à trois, I believe it's called. Now this just blows my mind, right? I mean, I am not used to this sort of thing. I mean, I was raised Catholic, for God's sake. So I'm totally weirded out by this, right? And then I just start blasting her. Like... I don't know how to deal with what I'm feeling, so I figure the best way is by calling her a slut, right? And tell her she was used. I'm... I'm out for blood. I really wanna hurt this girl. I'm like, "What the fuck is your problem?", right? And she's just all calmly trying to tell me, like, it was that time and it was that place and she doesn't think she should apologize because she doesn't feel that she's done anything wrong. I'm like, "Oh, really?" That's when I look her straight in the eye, I tell her it's over. I walk.
Jay: Fuckin 'A!
Silent Bob: No, idiot. It was a mistake. I didn't hate her. I wasn't disgusted with her. I was afraid. At that moment, I felt small, like... like I'd lacked experience, like I'd never be on her level, like I'd never be enough for her or something like that, you know what I'm saying? But, what I did not get, she didn't care. She wasn't looking for that guy anymore. She was... she was looking for me, for the Bob. But, uh, by the time I figure this all out, it was too late, man. She moved on, and all I had to show for it was some foolish pride, which then gave way to regret. She was the girl, I know that now. But I pushed her away. So, I've spent every day since then chasing Amy... so to speak.

Holden: No? I thought you'd be into this.
Alyssa: You did? What does that say about me?
Holden: Sweetheart, you've done stuff like this before. I mean, this should be no big deal for you.
Alyssa: You don't want this. You really don't want this.
Holden: No, I DO want this. This has to happen. Can't you see that? I mean, how can you not? No? What does that say about ME? You can take it from two guys whose names you can barely remember but I ask you to share an experience where it's about intimacy, and you say no?
Alyssa: I can't.
Holden: Baby, yes. You can. I'm telling you. I'll be there. And when it's over we'll be the strongest we've ever been 'cause we'll have been through this together. And then we'll be on the same level and there'll be nothing we can't accomplish.
Alyssa: [crying] Oh, Holden. That time is over for me. I've been there and I've done it and I didn't find what I was looking for in any of it. I found that in you. In us. Doing this won't help you forget about the things you're hung up on. It'll just create more.
Holden: No. It won't. I've thought about all that.
Alyssa: Yes it will. Maybe you'll see me differently from then on. You know. Or maybe you'll despise me for going along with it once you're in the moment. Maybe I'll moan differently and then you'll resent Banky and become suspicious of us. Or you'll alienate him because of it. And you'll grow to blame and hate me for the deterioration of your friendship. Or what if - and God, I sincerely doubt it - but what if I saw something in Banky that I've never seen before, you know, and I fell in love with him and left you. I've been down roads like this before. Many times. I know you feel doing this will broaden your horizons and give you experience. But I've had those experiences, on my own. And I can't accompany you on yours. I'm past that now. Or maybe I just love you too much. And I feel hurt and let down that you would want to share me with anyone. Because I would never want to share you.

Poignant.